Great, you sounds like getting it little by little now.

However, never give up your dream.
Someone said, man has two birthdays.
The second one is the moment you know why.

Focus on your internal world, you are going to able to change something, and you will be much happier.
-- Afterlife, Miracle

人生就是这样

那时的我在干什么？

孔子曰：三十而立，四十而不惑，五十而知天命，六十而耳顺，七十而从心所欲，不逾矩。这样既是自己的选择，也是环境的造化。